Chill Japanese Hip-Hop Playlist for Focus & Relaxation | Study Beats

[00:00:12]Adjusted for one.

[00:00:15]>> [music] [music] [music] [singing] >> I stop asking [music] which one it was.

[00:00:40]>> [music and singing] >> Body remembers what might want to forget.

[00:00:46]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> One person's warmth changes the geometry.

[00:00:58]>> [singing] [music] >> Room temperature, one person now.

[00:01:09]It takes [music] time to recalibrate.

[00:01:11][singing] It's cool now, but I am >> [music] >> Room temperature, just [music] right eventually.

[00:01:27]>> [music] [music] >> Reflex of the heart, not the mind.

[00:01:39]>> [music] >> Acceptance isn't forgetting. [music] >> [singing] [music] [singing] >> Room temperature, my own now.

[00:02:03]>> [music] >> Room temperature, one person now.

[00:02:10]It takes [music] time to recalibrate.

[00:02:18]>> [music] [music] >> Room temperature.

[00:02:31]>> [music] >> Room temperature, [music] just me now.

[00:02:39]That's okay.

[00:02:44]Just me now. Room temperature.

[00:02:49]Just me now.

[00:02:54]>> [music] >> That's okay.

[00:02:58]>> [music] [music] >> Just me now.

[00:03:13]>> [music] [music] >> Lamp [snorts] in the dark, just you and me.

[00:03:36]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> This is the hour I live for.

[00:03:53]>> [music] [singing] >> Lamp in [music] the dark, it begins again.

[00:04:06]>> [music] [singing] >> Lamp in the dark, stay on.

[00:04:19]I need this [singing] orange light to think.

[00:04:33]>> [music] [music] >> Lamp in the dark.

[00:04:48]>> [music] >> I'll let it come, [music] I'll let it go. Go anywhere.

[00:05:04]Memory visits like an [music] old friend.

[00:05:14]>> [music] >> Lamp in the dark, witness to all.

[00:05:22]Lamp in the dark, [music] stay on.

[00:05:26]I need this orange light to think.

[00:05:30]>> [music] [music] [music] >> The dark.

[00:05:54]>> [music] >> Lamp in the dark, still burning.

[00:06:03]Still here.

[00:06:06]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Oyasumi.

[00:06:18]>> [music] [music] >> Half a smile, the honest kind. [music] >> [music] [music] >> Like you're amused by something only you see.

[00:06:59]>> [music] >> Half a smile carries whole worlds.

[00:07:10]Half a smile, half a mystery.

[00:07:13]>> [music] >> And that was enough, more than enough.

[00:07:22]>> [music] >> Half [music] a smile, half a life shared.

[00:07:29]>> [singing] >> Half a life [music] shared. Maybe I was wrong about that.

[00:07:38]>> [singing] >> Maybe I was wrong about that.

[00:07:48]Half [music] a smile beyond categories.

[00:07:56]>> [music] >> Half a smile [music] appears without reason.

[00:08:05]>> [singing] >> Half a smile, half a mystery.

[00:08:11]And that was enough, more than enough.

[00:08:13]>> [music] [singing] [music] [music] >> Half a smile.

[00:08:34]Half a smile.

[00:08:37]Still [music] saying.

[00:08:39]Still feeling.

[00:08:46]>> [music] [music] >> Glasses in silence.

[00:09:12]>> [music] [singing] >> Say [music] nothing.

[00:09:27]Blur the feeling, sharpen [music] the facts.

[00:09:36]Loud spaces [music] make me lose myself.

[00:09:42]Glasses in silence, [music] my natural state.

[00:09:49]Through these lenses. [music] >> [music and singing] >> Glasses in silence, a different kind of love.

[00:10:02]>> [singing] [music] >> Taking off glasses, taking off the day.

[00:10:15]>> [music] [singing] >> Reality at low resolution, [music and singing] take off my >> [music] [singing] >> Two quiet watchers in the same city.

[00:10:36][music] Glasses in [music] silence, my natural state.

[00:10:45]>> [singing] [music] >> I see you clearly through these lenses.

[00:10:56]>> [music] [music] >> Take off my glasses, that's how I love me.

[00:11:07]Blur everything, [music] glasses in silence, sort of a >> [music] >> World, world, world. Focus, [singing] focus, focus, focus.

[00:11:29]>> [music] >> Glasses [singing] on, glasses [music] on.

[00:11:37]World in focus.

[00:11:40]World in blur.

[00:11:42]>> [music] >> Silence remains.

[00:11:52]>> [music] [music] >> The person you [singing] used to know.

[00:12:07]>> [music] >> Huh?

[00:12:14]>> [music] [music] >> S and S the maker girl can be what I got to go. So, she got to go.

[00:12:26]>> [music] [music] >> People [music and singing] grow into strangers.

[00:12:44]>> [music] >> The person you [music] used to know.

[00:12:55]The person you used to [music] know.

[00:12:59]>> [singing] [music] >> Remembered you.

[00:13:05]>> [singing] [music] [singing] >> The person [music] you used to know.

[00:13:23]>> [music] >> The person I used to know.

[00:13:32]>> [music] [music] >> That kind of trust is rare. So, >> [music] [music] >> The person [music and singing] you used to know.

[00:14:01]>> [music] >> The person you used to know.

[00:14:05]>> [music] >> Not the current [singing] you, the remembered you.

[00:14:11]>> [music] [singing] [music] [singing] >> The person [music] you used to know.

[00:14:29]>> [music and singing] [music] >> The person you used to know.

[00:14:43]Still here. Still love.

[00:14:48]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Small hole >> [music] >> Old playlist, never deleted.

[00:15:15]>> [music] >> Yeah.

[00:15:19]>> [music] >> Private feelings, public format. [music] >> [music] >> Music is the most accurate time machine.

[00:15:41]>> [music] >> Old playlist as old biography. [music] Old playlist still plays.

[00:15:53]>> [music] >> I don't update it. I don't delete it.

[00:16:02]>> [music] >> Old [music] playlist, old self.

[00:16:12]Yeah.

[00:16:15]>> [music] [music] >> Emotion before >> [music] [singing] >> The body keeps the score of love.

[00:16:35]>> [music] >> Old playlist, [music] different category.

[00:16:47]Old playlist [music] still plays.

[00:16:52]I don't [music] update it. I don't delete it.

[00:16:59]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Old playlist, >> [music] >> old feelings, still valid.

[00:17:23]Thank you.

[00:17:24]>> [music] >> Old music.

[00:17:29]>> [music] [music] [music and singing] >> Remember, we forget.

[00:17:50]>> [music] Yeah. [music] Come back, shock boots.

[00:18:01]>> [music] >> Replacing presents with greenery.

[00:18:07]>> [music] [music] >> I care for something, it cares for you back. [singing] >> [music] [singing and music] >> Confessional that never judges.

[00:18:30]What plants remember.

[00:18:32]>> [music] [singing] >> The hands that water them, [music] the voices heard.

[00:18:43]>> [music] >> Shock What plants remember is what [music] I need to forget.

[00:19:01]>> [music] >> Yeah.

[00:19:08]A living things change the air.

[00:19:14]>> [music] >> Grief finds whatever opening it Yeah.

[00:19:31]>> [music] >> What plants remember, I'm getting better.

[00:19:37]>> [music] >> What plants remember.

[00:19:45]The hands that water them, [music] the voices heard.

[00:19:59]>> [music] >> All that most got to remember.

[00:20:05]>> [music] >> Green and [music] quiet.

[00:20:14]Breathing together what friends [music] remember.

[00:20:21]You could eat the morning by morning.

[00:20:25]>> [music] [music] >> Unsent draft collection of almost e.

[00:20:40]Yeah.

[00:20:47]>> [music] >> Cursor blinking waiting for courage.

[00:20:56]>> [music] >> Sometimes it's pride, sometimes it's love.

[00:21:04]>> [music and singing] [music] >> Unsent draft is honest journal.

[00:21:15]Unsent [music and singing] draft you'll never I wrote it [singing] all, I meant it all.

[00:21:23]>> [music] >> Maybe writing was enough.

[00:21:31]>> [singing and music] >> Unsent draft my real conversation.

[00:21:41]Yeah.

[00:21:48]>> [music] >> Perfectionism is cowardice.

[00:21:53]Come picking [music] out cold the bar >> [singing] [music] >> The right moment doesn't wait for the right words.

[00:22:05]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Still debating.

[00:22:20]Unsent draft you'll never [music] read.

[00:22:25]I wrote it all, I meant it all.

[00:22:29]>> [music] [music] >> Unsent [music] draft.

[00:22:48]>> [music] [music] >> Unsent draft.

[00:22:59]Seven jewels and counting [music] your real.

[00:23:07]Someday [music] maybe.

[00:23:10]Or maybe not.

[00:23:20]>> [music and singing] [singing] [music] >> Pillow side thoughts.

[00:23:31]The unguarded kind. [music] >> [music] >> Yeah.

[00:23:44]>> [music and singing] >> The darkest honest like that.

[00:23:53]>> [music] >> Yeah.

[00:23:57]>> [singing] >> Go switching [music] between day and night self.

[00:24:12]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts don't lie.

[00:24:15]>> [singing] >> Pillow side [music] thoughts just before sleep.

[00:24:25]I solve [music] nothing but I feel everything.

[00:24:33]>> [music and singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[00:24:42]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts necessary noise.

[00:24:49]Some genuine >> [music] >> 3:00 a.m. is its own time zone.

[00:24:59]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> When no one's watching.

[00:25:11]>> [music] [music and singing] >> Gosh, the pillow side thoughts lifelong companion.

[00:25:24]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts just before sleep.

[00:25:32]>> [music] >> But I feel [singing] everything.

[00:25:41]>> [music] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[00:25:48]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts.

[00:25:53]>> [music and singing] >> Pillow side [music] thoughts.

[00:26:01]Pillow side thoughts.

[00:26:04]Pillow [music] side thoughts fade to sleep.

[00:26:08]Yeah.

[00:26:09]>> [music] >> I'll stay awake.

[00:26:17]>> [music] >> Oh, yeah, so me.

[00:26:23]>> [music] [singing] >> The weight of >> [music] [singing] >> small almost our >> [music] >> society >> [music] [singing] >> I carry what others don't remember throwing.

[00:30:34]>> [singing] >> Your words are the tone of [music] what they thought. Sensitivity as liability.

[00:30:40][singing] >> [music] [singing] [music] >> The weight of [singing] small things cuts both ways.

[00:30:56]The weight >> [music and singing] >> small things What seems small to you [music] means everything to me.

[00:31:09]>> [music] >> Invalidating small pain makes big distance.

[00:31:21]>> [music] >> The weight of small things.

[00:31:26]Respected.

[00:31:29]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Curated life [singing] and small objects.

[00:31:46]>> [music] >> I walked through your life like [music] a museum.

[00:31:59]>> [music] >> The weight of small things now I know.

[00:32:10]>> [music] >> The weight small things [music] >> [singing] >> What seems small to you means everything to me.

[00:32:22]>> [music] >> small >> [music] >> The weight of small [music] things >> [music] >> small thing everything >> [music] >> beautiful things weight >> [music] >> of small The weight of small >> [music] [music] [music] >> orange light confession always night >> [music] [music] [music] >> Lighting affects what we're willing to say.

[00:33:51]>> [music] [music] >> Orange light holds ambiguity gently.

[00:34:04]>> [music] [music] >> orange [music] light amber light confession [singing] light orange light [music] confession I say things here I can't say in daylight.

[00:34:33]>> [music] >> orange light [music] confession private ritual orange light and my heart say let's [music] feelings queue up in the right light >> [singing] [music] >> daylight [singing] made me protect myself >> [music] [singing] >> orange light confession >> [music] >> orange light confession I say things [music] here I can't say in daylight.

[00:35:39]>> [singing] [music] >> orange [music] light confession >> [music] >> orange light [music] orange light orange light >> [music] >> confession light enough >> [music] >> Don't look at [singing] my knee.

[00:36:18]Oh, yes, me.

[00:36:20]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> Letting [singing] the room breathe.

[00:36:46]Finally.

[00:36:49]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> The walls hold what we feel.

[00:37:05]>> [music and singing] >> Letting old air carry old pain out.

[00:37:13][music] >> [singing] [singing] >> Letting the [music] room breathe.

[00:37:23]Letting me breathe.

[00:37:27]Letting the room [music] breathe.

[00:37:31]>> [singing] >> I don't have to hold everything in here.

[00:37:34][music] >> [singing] >> Letting the [music and singing] room breathe. Letting life in.

[00:37:50]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> Sometimes you [music] don't need to throw away.

[00:38:09]>> [singing] [music] >> Stagnation was the problem, not the stuff. [music] >> [music] [singing] >> Letting the room breathe. First step.

[00:38:30]>> [music] >> Letting the room breathe.

[00:38:36]I don't have to hold [music] everything in here.

[00:38:46]>> [music] [singing] >> Letting the room breathe.

[00:38:51]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> in the open air moving >> [music] >> room breathing >> [singing] [music] >> letting go drama soft exit the harder [music and singing] come >> [music] [music] >> Oh, good.

[00:39:53]Soft exit leaves no evidence.

[00:40:00]>> [music] >> That's the cruelest [music] part.

[00:40:12]>> [singing] [music] >> Soft exit loudest silence.

[00:40:24]Soft exit. [music] Soft landing.

[00:40:29]I only felt my own pain then.

[00:40:34]>> [music and singing] [music] [music] [singing] >> exit understood later.

[00:40:54]>> [music] >> Soft exits need to be honored.

[00:41:11]>> [music] >> Love knows when to open the door.

[00:41:17]>> [music] >> Soft Soft [singing and music] exit foundation >> [music] >> I only felt my own pain then.

[00:41:41]>> [music] [music] [music] [music] [music] >> Soft exit. Soft memory. Soft gratitude.

[00:42:17]>> [music and singing] [music] [music] >> Kiss me later.

[00:42:46]Everything you left here still here.

[00:42:49][music] >> [music] [music] >> Your bookmark still inside.

[00:43:14]>> [music] >> Objects outlast relationships. [music] >> [music] [singing] >> Everything you left here found in layers.

[00:43:37]Everything you left here. [music] I tell myself just stuff.

[00:43:48]>> [music] [music] >> Everything you left here memory anchors.

[00:43:59]>> [music] >> It's going to take time.

[00:44:04]>> [music] >> Grief has its own timeline.

[00:44:10]>> [music] >> You know when you're ready. [music] >> [music] >> Everything you left here slowly releasing.

[00:44:33]>> [music] >> Everything you left here.

[00:44:37]I tell myself [music] just stuff.

[00:44:47]>> [music] >> Everything you left here.

[00:44:54]>> [music] [music] >> Everything you left here. [music] Becoming mine now.

[00:45:16]I'm letting go. [singing] >> [music] [music] [music] [music] >> Forgive the distance I created it.

[00:45:47]>> [music] [music] >> Fear of intimacy disguised as independence.

[00:46:06]>> [music] [music] >> I didn't know I was doing it then.

[00:46:17]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance self-inflicted.

[00:46:28]Forgive the distance [music] I put between us.

[00:46:36]Not you, it [music] was always me.

[00:46:44]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance lesson learned.

[00:46:53]>> [music] [music] >> The one I was protecting wasn't you.

[00:47:07]>> [music] >> Preemptive retreat as self-defense.

[00:47:16][music] >> [singing] [music] [singing] >> Forgive the distance growing out of it.

[00:47:32]Forgive the distance [music] I put between us.

[00:47:38]>> [music] >> Not you, it was always me.

[00:47:46]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Forgive the distance.

[00:47:59]>> [music] >> Forgive [music] the distance.

[00:48:09]Forgive myself.

[00:48:13]>> [music] >> Pull me closer.

[00:48:20]>> [singing] >> Forgive the distance.

[00:48:27]>> [music] [music] >> Before the window brightens.

[00:48:50]>> [music] [music] >> I started waking up for this.

[00:49:02]>> [music] [music] >> Grief changed my sleep then growth did.

[00:49:16]>> [music] [singing] >> Before the window brightens most myself.

[00:49:21]I can't wait. [music] Before the window brightens.

[00:49:30]>> [music] >> The world hasn't asked anything of me yet.

[00:49:38]>> [music] [music] >> The window [singing] brightens my fuel.

[00:49:52]>> [music] >> This is the ceremony I needed.

[00:50:05]>> [music] >> yesterday and today >> [music] >> Before the window [music] brightens, now home.

[00:50:25]Before the window brightens. [music] The world hasn't asked anything of me.

[00:50:36]>> [music] >> Before [music and singing] the window brightens.

[00:50:52]>> [music] [music] >> Before the window brightens.

[00:51:05]>> [music] >> And then it does.

[00:51:09]Every morning. [singing] >> [music] [music] [music] >> new frequency same song >> [music] >> totally different experience >> [music] [music] >> We bring ourselves to music >> [music] >> new frequency, new reception [music] new frequency [music] picking up new signals The world didn't change, I did. [music] >> [music] [music] >> new frequency quietly different >> [music] [music] >> Listening requires space inside.

[00:53:00]>> [music] >> Self-absorption was survival >> [music] [music] >> new frequency more bandwidth now >> [music] >> new frequency picking up new signals >> [singing] [music] >> The world didn't change, I did.

[00:53:40]>> [music] [music] >> new frequency >> [music] [music] >> new frequency always [music] tuning never fixed >> [music] >> new frequency [music] >> [music] [music and singing] >> Still breathing, that's the answer.

[00:54:50]>> [music] [music] >> Survival [music] looked like nothing from the outside.

[00:55:09]>> [music] >> Still breathing is a choice sometimes.

[00:55:18]>> [music] >> Still breathing, no explanation needed.

[00:55:26][music] Still breathing, still here.

[00:55:35]>> [music] >> Not thriving yet, maybe but surviving.

[00:55:39]>> [singing] [music] >> That counts, that matters.

[00:55:46]foundation of everything [music] Still [music] breathing is honest.

[00:56:04]People who accept still breathing.

[00:56:06][singing] >> [music] >> Still breathing is enough for now.

[00:56:20]>> [music] >> Still breathing, still here.

[00:56:25]Not thriving yet, maybe but [music] surviving.

[00:56:37]>> [music] [music] >> Still breathing.

[00:56:49]>> [music] >> Still breathing.

[00:56:57]>> [music] >> Still breathing.

[00:57:03]>> [music] >> Still here.

[00:57:05]Still you.

[00:57:08]>> [singing] >> Still breathing.

[00:57:12]>> [music] [music] [singing] [music] [music] >> Morning has no memory.

[00:57:46]>> [music] [music and singing] >> Tears evaporate with the dark.

[00:58:00]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Morning softens the edges of midnight.

[00:58:15]>> [music and singing] [music] >> Morning has no memory, night has all [singing] of it.

[00:58:35]Morning has [music] no memory. [singing] This slate isn't clean, but it's lighter.

[00:58:42]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Morning has no memory.

[00:59:01]closing ceremony for the dark hours >> [music] >> Morning is intermission, not conclusion.

[00:59:15]>> [music] [music] >> Morning has no memory, [singing] fresh start.

[00:59:26]>> [music] >> Morning has no memory. [music] The slate is a fresh >> [singing] >> start.

[00:59:34]The plate isn't clean, but it's lighter.

[00:59:38]>> [music] >> Morning [music] has no memory.

[00:59:58]>> [music] >> Morning has no memory.

[01:00:06]Night [music] remembers all.

[01:00:08]Both are needed. [singing] >> [music] [music] >> Morning light.

[01:00:26]>> [music] [music] [music] >> Room temperature.

[01:00:44]Adjusted for one.

[01:00:49]>> [music] >> I stop asking which one it was.

[01:01:09]>> [music] >> Body remembers what mind wants to forget.

[01:01:18]>> [music] [music] >> One person's [singing] warmth changes the geometry. [music] Room temperature, one person now.

[01:01:38][music and singing] It takes time to recalibrate.

[01:01:43][music and singing] >> [music] >> Temperature, just right [music] eventually.

[01:02:01]>> [music] [music] >> Reflects of the heart, not the mind.

[01:02:12]>> [music] [singing] >> Acceptance isn't [music and singing] forgetting.

[01:02:25]>> [music] >> Room temperature, [music] my own Room temperature, [music] one person now.

[01:02:43]It takes time to recalibrate. [music] >> [music] [music] >> Room temperature.

[01:03:05]>> [music] >> Just me now.

[01:03:12]That's okay. [music] Room now Just me now.

[01:03:26]That's [music] okay.

[01:03:37]>> [music] >> Just me now.

[01:03:41]>> [music] [sighs] [music] >> Lamp in the dark, just you and me.

[01:04:02]>> [music] [music] [singing] >> This is the hour I live for.

[01:04:24]>> [music] [music] >> Lamp [singing] in the dark, it begins again.

[01:04:35]>> [music] [singing and music] >> Lamp in the dark, stay on.

[01:04:51]I need this orange to think.

[01:04:57]>> [music] [music] [music] >> Lamp in the dark, I'm here.

[01:05:17]>> [singing] [music] [music] >> I'll let it come. I'll let it go.

[01:05:32]>> [music] >> Memory visits like an old friend.

[01:05:41]>> [music] [music] >> Lamp in the dark, witness to all them >> [music] >> Lamp in the dark, stay on.

[01:05:59]I need [singing] this orange light to think. [music] >> [music] >> Lamp in the dark, still burning, [music] still here.

[01:06:42]>> [music and singing] >> Oh, yes, me.

[01:06:48]>> [music] >> Half a smile, the honest kind.

[01:07:13]>> [music] [music] >> Like you're amused by something only you see.

[01:07:35]>> [music] >> Half a smile carries whole worlds.

[01:07:43]Half a smile, half a mystery.

[01:07:45]>> [music] >> And that was enough, more than enough.

[01:07:52]>> [singing] [music] [singing] >> Half a smile, half a life shared.

[01:08:02]>> [music] [singing] [singing] >> Maybe I was wrong about that.

[01:08:18]>> [music] >> Half a smile beyond categories.

[01:08:32]>> [singing] >> Half a smile appears without reason.

[01:08:38]>> [singing and music] >> Half a smile, half a mystery.

[01:08:43]>> [singing and music] >> And that was enough, more than enough.

[01:08:51]>> [music] [music] >> Half a smile.

[01:09:06]Half a smile.

[01:09:08]>> [music] >> Still seeing.

[01:09:12]Still feeling.

[01:09:17]>> [music] [music] >> Glasses and silence. My armor.

[01:09:47]>> [music] >> Say nothing.

[01:09:53]>> [music] >> Same meaning in the other note.

[01:09:59]>> [singing] >> Blur the feeling, sharpen the fact.

[01:10:04]>> [music] >> Loud spaces make me lose myself.

[01:10:13]>> [music] >> Glasses and silence. My natural state.

[01:10:18]>> [music] >> I see you clearly [singing] through these lenses.

[01:10:25]>> [music] [singing] >> Glasses and silence, a different kind of [singing] love.

[01:10:35]>> [music] >> Taking off glasses, taking off the day.

[01:10:49]>> [music] >> Reality at low resolution.

[01:11:02]>> [music] >> Two quiet watchers in the same city.

[01:11:09]>> [music] >> Glasses and silence, my natural state.

[01:11:22]I see [music] you clearly through these lenses.

[01:11:27]>> [singing] [music] [music] [music] >> Blur everything, glasses and silence. So they be.

[01:11:46]>> [music] >> Yeah.

[01:11:57]World in focus, focus, [music and singing] Yeah.

[01:12:04]>> [music] >> Glasses on, glasses on.

[01:12:09]>> [music] >> World in focus.

[01:12:12]World in blur.

[01:12:15]Silence remains.

[01:12:24]>> [music] [music] >> The person you used to know.

[01:12:42]So, yeah.

[01:12:44]>> [music] [music] >> S N S.

[01:12:59]>> [music] >> People go [music and singing] into strangers, say choga.

[01:13:17]>> [music] [singing] >> The person [music] you used to know.

[01:13:28]The person you used to know.

[01:13:31]>> [music and singing] >> Not the current you, the remembered [music] you.

[01:13:38]>> [singing] [music and clears throat] >> The person you used to know. [music] >> [music] >> The kind of trust is rare.

[01:14:19]>> [music] [music] >> The person you used to know.

[01:14:32]>> [music] >> You used to know.

[01:14:37]>> [music and singing] >> Not the current you, the remembered you.

[01:14:44]>> [singing] [music] [music] [singing] >> The person you used to [music and singing] know.

[01:15:08]>> [music] >> The person you used to [music] know. Still here. Still love.

[01:15:20]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Smart phone.

[01:15:40]Playlist.

[01:15:43]Old playlist, [music] never deleted.

[01:15:49]>> [music] >> Private feelings, public format.

[01:16:01]>> [music] >> Music is the most accurate [music] time machine.

[01:16:15]>> [music] >> Old playlist as old biography.

[01:16:22]Old playlist still plays. [music] I don't update it, I don't delete it.

[01:16:31]>> [music] [music and singing] >> Old playlist. Old self.

[01:16:44]>> [music] [music] >> Emotion before image. [music] Hey, the body keeps the score of love.

[01:17:05]>> [music] [music] >> Old playlist, different category.

[01:17:18]>> [music] >> Old playlist still plays.

[01:17:23]>> [music] >> I don't update it, I don't delete it.

[01:17:39]>> [singing and music] >> I got it.

[01:17:44]Old playlist.

[01:17:46]>> [music] >> Old feelings.

[01:17:49]Still valid.

[01:17:56]>> [music] [music] [music] [singing] >> Remember, we forget.

[01:18:26]>> [music] [music] >> Replacing presents with greenery.

[01:18:41]>> [music and singing] >> I care for something that cares for you back. [music] >> [music] >> Confessional that never judges. [music] >> [music and singing] >> What plants remember.

[01:19:08]The hands that water them, >> [music] >> the voices heard.

[01:19:17]>> [singing] >> So you know I told you so.

[01:19:25]What plants remember is what I need [music] to forget.

[01:19:33]>> [music] >> Living things change the air. I could tell you what to Whatever opening it can.

[01:20:02]>> [music] [singing] >> What plants remember, I'm getting better.

[01:20:07]>> [music] >> What plants remember.

[01:20:17]The hands that watered them, the voices [music] heard.

[01:20:28]So what's that you tell me to tell me to tell me >> [music] >> I got to go. What plants remember.

[01:20:41]A boy now and then.

[01:20:44]Green and quiet.

[01:20:46]>> [music] >> Breathing together. What plants remember.

[01:20:53]You could eat the morning.

[01:20:55]>> [music] >> By morning.

[01:21:07]Unsent [music] draft.

[01:21:09]Almost >> [singing] >> Yeah.

[01:21:22]Blinking waiting for courage.

[01:21:27]>> [music] >> Sometimes it's bright, sometimes it's love.

[01:21:33]>> [music] [music] >> Unsent draft as honest journal. [music] Unsent draft [singing] journal.

[01:21:53]I wrote it all. I meant it all.

[01:21:58]>> [music and singing] >> Maybe writing was enough.

[01:22:03]>> [singing] >> Unsent draft, my real conversation.

[01:22:06][music] Yeah.

[01:22:21]>> [music] >> Perfectionism [singing] is cowardice.

[01:22:29]>> [music and singing] >> The right moment doesn't wait for the right words.

[01:22:35]>> [music and singing] [music] >> Still debating what I'm about [music] to say and do to no mind.

[01:22:52]Unsent draft you'll never read.

[01:22:56]>> [music] >> I wrote it all. I meant it all.

[01:23:03]Maybe >> [music] >> Maybe >> [music] >> Unsent draft.

[01:23:17]>> [music] [music] >> Unsent draft.

[01:23:32]Seven jewels I'm counting.

[01:23:40]Someday maybe.

[01:23:42]Or maybe not.

[01:23:55]>> [music] >> Pillow [music] side thoughts.

[01:24:03]The unguarded kind.

[01:24:07]>> [music] [music] >> Yeah.

[01:24:17]>> [singing] >> The darkest honest like that.

[01:24:25]Yeah. [music] >> [music] >> Go switching between day and night self.

[01:24:42]>> [music and singing] >> Pillow side thoughts don't lie.

[01:24:50]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts just before sleep.

[01:24:56]>> [music] >> I saw nothing but I feel everything.

[01:25:06]>> [music and singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[01:25:11]>> [music] >> Pillow side [music] thoughts necessary noise.

[01:25:26]>> [music] >> 3:00 a.m. is a time zone.

[01:25:31]>> [music] >> When no one's >> [music and singing] >> Pillow side thoughts lifelong companion.

[01:25:55][singing] >> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts just before sleep.

[01:26:04]>> [singing] >> I saw [music] nothing but I feel everything.

[01:26:13]>> [music] [singing] >> Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

[01:26:21]>> [music] >> Pillow side thoughts.

[01:26:25]>> [singing] [music] >> Pillow side thoughts.

[01:26:33]Pillow side [music] thoughts.

[01:26:36]Pillow side thoughts.

[01:26:38]Wait to sleep.

[01:26:42]Or stay >> [music] >> awake.

[01:26:53]Oh yeah, so me.

[01:26:59]>> [music] >> The weight of small things, real [music] weight.

[01:30:49]>> [music] >> I carry what others don't remember throwing.

[01:31:10]Sensitivity as liability. [singing] >> [music and singing] >> The weight of small things cuts both ways.

[01:31:28]The weight of small things cut >> [music and singing] >> What seems small to you means everything to me.

[01:31:38]>> [music] >> Invalidating small pain makes big distance.

[01:31:51]>> [music] >> The weight of small things. [music] Respect it.

[01:32:03]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Curated life in small [singing] objects.

[01:32:22]>> [music] >> I walked through your life like a museum.

[01:32:31]>> [singing] [music] >> The weight of small things, now I know.

[01:32:44]The weight of small things cut >> [singing] [music] >> What seems small to you means everything to me.

[01:32:54]>> [music] [music] >> of small things >> [singing] >> small things everything beautiful things weight >> [music] >> of small things the weight of small things >> [music] [music] >> orange light confession always night >> [music] >> Lighting [music] affects what we're willing to say.

[01:34:33]Orange light holds ambiguity. [music] >> [music] >> orange light [music] amber light [singing] confession no light orange light [music] confession I say things here I can't say in daylight.

[01:35:05]>> [music] [music] >> orange [singing] light confession >> [music] >> The subtle feelings queue up in the right light.

[01:35:28]>> [music] [music] >> protected myself orange light confession orange [music] light confession I say things here I can't say in daylight.

[01:36:10]>> [singing] [music] >> orange light [music] confession >> [music] >> orange light orange [music] light orange light confession light [music] enough >> [singing] [music] [music] >> letting the room breathe finally >> [music and singing] >> what we feel >> [singing] [music] >> letting old air carry old pain out >> [music] [singing] >> letting the room breathe letting me breathe >> [music] >> letting the room breathe >> [music] >> I to hold everything in here.

[01:38:09]>> [singing and music] >> letting the room [singing] breathe letting life [music] in >> [music] [music] [singing] >> Sometimes you don't need to throw away.

[01:38:40]>> [music] [music] >> Stagnation was the problem not the stuff.

[01:38:53]>> [singing] [music] >> letting [music] the room breathe first step >> [music and singing] >> letting the room breathe I don't have to hold everything in here.

[01:39:12]It's unbearable >> [singing] [music] >> in the room break.

[01:39:24]You're my mother. [singing] >> [music] >> in the open Air moving.

[01:39:38]I'm breathing.

[01:39:40]>> [music] >> Letting go.

[01:39:50]>> [music] >> Soft exit, the harder kind.

[01:40:10]Don't get too easy.

[01:40:13]>> [music] >> Soft exit leaves no evidence.

[01:40:33]>> [music] >> That's the cruelest part.

[01:40:41]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Soft exit, loudest silence.

[01:40:56]Soft [music] exit, soft landing.

[01:41:02]I only felt my own pain [music] then.

[01:41:06]>> [singing] [music] [music] >> Soft exit, >> [music] >> understood later.

[01:41:35]But soft exits need to be honored.

[01:41:45]>> [music] >> Love [singing] knows when to open the door.

[01:41:51]>> [music] >> Soft exit >> [singing] >> Soft exit, foundation of now.

[01:42:04]Soft exit, [music] soft landing.

[01:42:09]>> [singing] >> I only felt my own pain then.

[01:42:17]>> [music] [music] [music] [music] >> Soft exit, soft memory, soft gratitude.

[01:42:50]>> [music] [music] [music] >> Everything you left here, still here.

[01:43:25]>> [music] [music] [music] >> Objects outlast relationships. [music] >> [music] >> Everything you left here, found in layers.

[01:44:08]>> [music] >> Everything you left here I tell myself it's just [music] stuff.

[01:44:21]>> [music] [music and singing] >> Everything you left here, memory anchors.

[01:44:38]>> [music] >> Grief has its own timeline.

[01:44:49]You know [music] when you're ready.

[01:44:57]>> [music] >> Everything you left here, slowly releasing.

[01:45:05]>> [music] >> Everything you left here I tell myself it's just [music] stuff.

[01:45:16]>> [music] [music] >> Everything >> [music] [singing] [music] [music] [music] [music] >> Forgive the distance. I created it.

[01:46:20]>> [music] >> Fear of intimacy [music] disguised as independence. [singing] >> [music] [singing] >> I [music] didn't know I was doing it then.

[01:46:46]>> [singing] [music] >> Forgive the distance, self-inflicted.

[01:46:56][music] Forgive the distance [music] I put between us.

[01:47:06]>> [singing] >> Not [music] you, it was always me.

[01:47:16]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance, lesson learned.

[01:47:24]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> wasn't you >> [music] >> Preemptive retreat as self-defense.

[01:47:50]>> [music] [singing] >> Forgive the distance, growing out of [singing] it.

[01:48:00]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance I put between us.

[01:48:07]>> [music] >> Not you, it was always me.

[01:48:20]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance.

[01:48:32]>> [music] >> Forgive the distance.

[01:48:41]Forgive [music] myself.

[01:48:47]Moving closer.

[01:48:53]>> [singing] >> Forgive the distance.

[01:49:15]>> [music] >> Before the window brightens.

[01:49:25]>> [music] >> You're walking mine or so long you go. I might need to go to sleep to chill I started waking [music] up for this.

[01:49:37]Is it what she might have to take out?

[01:49:40]>> [music] >> Grief changed my sleep then growth did.

[01:49:48]>> [music] >> Before the window brightens most myself.

[01:49:59]Before the window [singing and music] brightens.

[01:50:05]The world hasn't asked anything of me yet. [music] >> [music] >> The window brightens my fuel.

[01:50:24]>> [music] >> This is the ceremony I [singing] needed.

[01:50:39]>> [singing] >> So [music] stand there between yesterday and >> [singing] [music] >> Before the window brightens now home.

[01:50:54]>> [music] >> Before the window [singing] brightens.

[01:51:03]The world hasn't asked anything of me yet.

[01:51:14]>> [music] >> Before the window brightens.

[01:51:23]>> [singing] [music] >> Before the window brightens.

[01:51:38]>> [music] >> And then it does.

[01:51:41]Every morning.

[01:51:44]>> [music] [music] >> New frequency.

[01:52:08]Same [music] song.

[01:52:13]>> [music] >> Totally different experience. [music] >> [music] >> We bring ourselves to music.

[01:52:36]>> [music] [singing] >> New frequency, new reception.

[01:52:47]>> [music and singing] >> New frequency picking up new signals.

[01:52:52]>> [music] >> The world didn't change, I did.

[01:52:59]>> [music] [music] >> New frequency quietly [music] different.

[01:53:22]>> [music] >> Listening requires space inside. [music] >> [music] >> Self absorption was survival >> [music] [singing] >> New frequency [music] more bandwidth now.

[01:53:57]New frequency picking [music] up new signals.

[01:54:04]The world didn't change, I did. [music] >> [singing] [music] [music] >> New frequency.

[01:54:28]>> [singing] [music] >> Mata.

[01:54:34]New [music] frequency.

[01:54:37]Always turning.

[01:54:40]Never fixed. [music] >> [music] >> New frequency.

[01:54:52]>> [music] [music] [music and singing] >> Still breathing, that's the answer.

[01:55:28]Yeah, [music] yeah.

[01:55:33]>> [music] >> Survival looks like nothing from the outside.

[01:55:45]breathing is a choice sometimes. [music] >> [music] >> Still breathing, [singing] no explanation needed.

[01:56:02]Still breathing, still here. [music] Not thriving yet, maybe but surviving.

[01:56:11]>> [music] >> That comes, that matters.

[01:56:16]So lay down, still breathing.

[01:56:18]>> [music] >> Foundation of everything.

[01:56:25]>> [music] >> Still breathing is honest.

[01:56:37]People who accept still breathing.

[01:56:40]>> [music and singing] [music] >> Still breathing is enough for now.

[01:56:53]Still breathing, >> [music] >> still here. Still breathing, that's all that you do.

[01:56:58]Not thriving yet, maybe but surviving.

[01:57:03]>> [music] [music] >> Still breathing.

[01:57:20]>> [music] >> Still breathing.

[01:57:30]Still, still, still.

[01:57:33]Still [music] breathing.

[01:57:35]Still here.

[01:57:38]Still you.

[01:57:43]Still breathing.

[01:57:48]>> [music] [music] [music] >> Morning has no memory.

[01:58:16]You've been >> [music] [singing] >> Tears evaporate with the dark.

[01:58:30]>> [applause] [music] [music] >> Morning softens the edges of midnight.

[01:58:46]>> [music] [singing] [music] >> Morning has no memory, night has all of it.

[01:59:02]That's all I was elected.

[01:59:07]Morning has no [music] memory.

[01:59:12]This light isn't clean, but it's lighter.

[01:59:15]>> [music] [music] >> Morning has no memory. Gift for us.

[01:59:29]Long too.

[01:59:32]>> [music] >> Closing ceremony for the dark hours.

[01:59:39]>> [music] >> Morning [singing] is intermission, [music] not conclusion.

[01:59:51]>> [music] >> Morning has no memory. [singing] Fresh [music] start.

[02:00:01]Morning has no memory.

[02:00:05]>> [music] >> This light isn't clean, but it's lighter.

[02:00:10]>> [music] [music] >> Morning has no [music] memory.

[02:00:29]>> [singing and music] >> Morning has no memory.

[02:00:35]>> [singing] [music] >> Night remembers all.

[02:00:41]Both are needed.

[02:00:44]>> [music] >> Morning light.

[02:00:50]>> [music] [music]